That's what I've told myself, and that's what I've done.
I am no longer feeling like The End of (My) World is Nigh! Actually, I'm feeling pretty good.
I got my blood tests done yesterday and my ultrasounds are in the morning. Someone I know mentioned the symptoms I had sounded like Endometriosis, so, yes, I went back to the dreaded Internet, but with an actual affliction in mind you get so much more reliable results. Looking at the symptoms, I think my friend was bang on in her diagnosis. It sounds like symptoms I've been having since I was a teen, just that they have gotten progressively worse until I am at this point and in pain most days. The thing is, whilst it's painful, and damned annoying, it is in no way life threatening. So, while the Doc still needs to do his diagnosis and agree with this, I am feeling in a more positive frame of mind, because it is something I can again have control over.
Because of my little panic, and my current sunnier mindset, I have been reminded of just how much I adore my darling hubby and our beautiful daughters, and consequently I have been making the most of my spare time with the kids. The house perpetually looks like a bomb site (hopefully no visitors will come!) but I had a lovely weekend at the splash park on Saturday and a classic car show on Sunday with my girls. Fun was had and quality time was spent. Monday, Freyja wanted to head to the park in the evening. Usually I am full of excuses, it's too hot, too cold, too windy, too rainy, too late etc. But Monday, I moved my lazy arse, and off we went. It was lovely! Sure, my own personal ground zero awaited me at home (it still does incidentally) but hell, there are always more dishes to clean, clothes to wash, floors to sweep, but how many precious moments of childhood are there remaining. They tick by so fast, we need to grab them with both hands, capture memories on film and enjoy each precious second.... And then embarrass them with the photographic evidence when they are teenagers!!! :-)
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